also i’m so “okay” about so many ppl lately im just like i dont care, i can’t care, there is literally nothing right now that will make me care about anything beyond the immediate and terrifying event of having to be a person daily and i know you want me to like reach out and comfort you i GET WHEN PEOPLE ARE LIKE…VYING FOR ATTENTION…I CAN TELL…IM SORRY I JUST CANT RIGHT NOW. I DONT HAVE IT IN ME.
or even how do you just say I DON TTHINK YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS ANyMOrE AND it maKES ME SAD BUT ALSO ANGRY BECAUSE JUST TELL ME HOLY SHIT!
my mom made me a good sandwich with avocado on it for dinner but i haven’t been hungry since lunch because i’ve been Sad™
i got my feelings hurt pretty bad today but im not going to post why because i didnt do anything to fucking deserve it and ill die before i admit weakness tbqh
i am nauseous and hhaven’t had anything to eat today other than 2 large coffees and a handful of fries bc i haven’t felt like i could keep food down but im starting to be hungry AND nauseous and i have a headache and my mom made dinner earlier but like deliberately didn’t make me any and didn’t say aynthing about ti because not feeding me is how my parents like to be passive aggressive about me “acting out” bc then they go “oh you didn’t say you wanted anything” even though it’s like? okay but why would the default be “NOT EATING DINNER TODAY”? and then i struggle to find food in the Strictly Regulated Pantry that i won’t get yelled at for “stealing” later bc otherwise its chips and salsa for dinner which honestly the longer i look at the more i want to throw up
STOP WAKING ME UP!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!
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